OFFICIAL TRANSCRIPT OF COUNTY PSYCHOLOGIST DR. ALLEN OSWALD WITH PATIENT BRAD NAVARROR, CASE #MN449704, JULY 19, 1:30 PM
DOCTOR OSWALD: Hello Brad. You’ve visited the burn ward since last time we talked. How did that go?
BRAD: Honestly, it messed me up a little.
DOCTOR OSWALD: What do you mean?
BRAD: Everyone was doomed there. It was terrible.
DOCTOR OSWALD: What did you learn from it?
BRAD: I don’t want to get burned. But I don’t think that will ever happen to me.
DOCTOR OSWALD: A tragedy is already beginning to happen to you. Look around you. We don’t want your story have a similar ending.
BRAD: Look, I came here to be real today. If you want to threaten me, I’ll push back. Is that they direction you want to go?
DOCTOR OSWALD: No. I want us to be able to listen to each other without getting upset. Over the last year, I feel like you’ve created a mask that you hide behind. You try to act aggressive. You act like you have it all together on the outside, but inside, you’re hurting and don’t know who you are anymore. This is not normal. No kid should have to live through all the stress you’ve been living through. So let’s try something different for a change. Take off your mask. I want to meet the real Brad that no one else sees or knows.
BRAD: Don’t try your psychology tricks on me.
DOCTOR OSWALD: You have a bad habit fighting everyone who is trying to help you. This bad habit is what’s holding you back from a breakthrough. Let it go. You don’t need to fight anymore.
BRAD: What else do you want me to say that I haven’t already said?
DOCTOR OSWALD: Tell me the truth, Brad. I promise I won’t hurt you. Let’s talk about the fire.
BRAD: Just leave that in the past. You’re the one always saying that we’re here to change our future.
DOCTOR OSWALD: Our lives are like a book. We can’t skip a few chapters and then understand how the rest of our story goes.
BRAD: I’m smart enough to figure anything out.
DOCTOR OSWALD: But I still want to know what really happened that day. The police have submitted their evidence, and we’ve discussed how the details may be connected to you. You’re the only one still holding onto the secrets. You must be exhausted holding them all in. Release your secrets and we can finally move on from this nightmare.
BRAD: But if I tell you what I know, you’ll think I’m crazy.
DOCTOR OSWALD: I promise I won’t. I just want to hear the truth of what really happened.
BRAD: Fine. I’ll trust you for once, but if you really want to see who the crazy one in the room is, get ready.
DOCTOR OSWALD: I’ve been waiting to meet the real you. It won’t scare me, Brad.
BRAD: Fine. The day it happened I grabbed the gas can from our house and carried it to the field and then poured it out into the grass. I climbed high into the trees and looked down at the words I had written in giant letters, “LIFE IS HELL.” That’s when I set a box of matches on fire and threw them into the field, and the flames jumped up at me, higher and hotter than I had expected. The wind changed direction and the flames shot toward the houses like a giant fireball. Once it was lit, I couldn’t do anything to stop it. The sight was unreal. The world suddenly became full of smoke and orange flames. A tornado of fire formed in the center of the smoke and whipped around the entire field. It was the most powerful thing I’d ever seen. It was like watching the sun explode and I was the one who did it. I yelled at the fire, and the flames roared back at me. I heard the fire-engines coming, and that’s when I ran home.
DOCTOR OSWALD: Thank you, Brad.
BRAD: Don’t thank me. You’re probably going to call the police to arrest me, aren’t you? Are you happy that you’ve finally captured the freak you’ve been chasing? Am I crazy enough to win an award for you?
DOCTOR OSWALD: I am not calling the police. My goal is not to win an award for finding the real you.
BRAD: You’re a liar. I know the cops are on their way. You tricked me. You’ve been manipulating me ever since I got here. You finally caught your wild animal, and now you’re going to put me in a cage. When the cops come, I’m going to run away from here.
DOCTOR OSWALD: You don’t need to worry. The cops aren’t coming. You just fought your own worst enemy – yourself. Let the fear out. You can be you now. There’s nothing to hide or be ashamed of anymore.
DOCTOR OSWALD: There’s some tissue over there if you need it.
BRAD: I’m not crying.
DOCTOR OSWALD: Then why are your hands covering your face?
BRAD: Leave me alone.
DOCTOR OSWALD: Let’s take a break. We’ll resume in a few minutes.
DOCTOR OSWALD: How do you feel now?
BRAD: I’m really confused as what’s going on, and what I should do next.
DOCTOR OSWALD: You look different. I can see you’re already changing. There’s an old Egyptian proverb that says, “God made tears to put out the fires in our souls.” You’re not a monster. You’re just a normal kid who got into too much trouble and is now just trying to survive it.
BRAD: Are you expecting me to thank you?
DOCTOR OSWALD: I don’t want a thank you. You did all the fighting yourself. How do you feel now?
BRAD: I feel like this is all a bad dream.
DOCTOR OSWALD: You’re going to be OK, Brad. It can turn into a great dream again.
BRAD: I feel sick right now. All the fighting is getting old. It isn’t as fun as it used to be. I’m getting tired of it.
DOCTOR OSWALD: We can start fixing your life and preparing for your future now. Remember that psychiatrist report we read a few weeks ago?
DOCTOR OSWALD: Now that you’ve been honest with me, I can be honest with you. I don’t agree with a lot of the things in that report. I don’t see the monster that psychiatrist saw in you. He was wrong. You’ll never have to see that psychiatrist again. The only opinion that matters from now on is mine.
BRAD: What do you mean?
DOCTOR OSWALD: I want us both to start over from scratch, and I want to give you some incentive to do this. If we reach certain achievements in the months ahead, I am willing to drop your probation early and maybe even drop the felony charge at some point. But I want to remind you: I can revoke this deal at any time. Do you understand what’s at stake?
BRAD: Yes –
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